Today I weep. It's Sadie's last day of her first year of nursery school. I am sure many other parents find this an emotional milestone but it occurred to me last night that I truly didn't know if I would literally be alive to witness it for myself on her first day of school back in September just a day before her 2nd birthday.
Only a couple of weeks earlier, we had discovered my original brain tumors and the prognosis was dire and quite grim. I clearly remember having dropped Sadie at school with Maia one morning and falling apart into a hysterical puddle of tears as the teachers had just spoken of the "graduating" class at the end of the year and what their ceremony would be. Graduating class? For Sadie that would be three years from now. I didn't even know if I would I would see my baby finish her FIRST year of nursery school let alone make it through pre-school. Weeping.
I would say 99% of the time we live most days like there is a tomorrow. We try not to get ahead of ourselves around here. Planning our own calendar in advance is always crap shoot but we go for it just the same. Then life sneaks up on us. We look a few weeks ahead and a day on the calendar pops-up at us which has already been pre-set and not by us. In this case, today's event had not planned by us, but by the powers that be...the ever-powerful school calendar. Today is that day. TODAY! Today is SPECIAL! Yes, the tumors in my brain have come back in the last couple of months, but I am still here...TODAY! TODAY, I get to watch my "big girl" finish her last day of her first year of nursery school. Now that's a blessing! Thank you all.
I suspect weeping all day!