Still Hanging In

This is probably a poor choice of words, but I'm still alive.  I know I haven't written in a very long time but in my defense I do have cancer.

It kind of sucks that I haven't been keeping up with posting on the blog because I feel like I need to recap the last 6 weeks from my perspective but honestly I can't.  I can't even remember what I had for breakfast today.  The chemo brain (a.k.a.-lack of short term memory) has really kicked in.  I feel generally stupid a lot of the time.  I think I can say that, right?  I mean there isn't a lobby for stupid people out there, is there?  If there is then they aren't that stupid because they've organized themselves and are probably trying to become a protected class.  Frankly, stupid people should be a protected class and we should be the ones protected from them.  But I digress.

If I sound a little mean today it's because I haven't been feeling well all weekend.  Why?  Um, let me see...oh yes...I HAVE CANCER!!!

I must say I am so over it.  And I'm even more over Nathan's cancer.  His cancer is way worse than mine.  This chemo/radiation regimen he is on currently is horrendous.  He leaves every morning at 6:30 am to go into the city, has his radiation treatment at 7:20 for 20 minutes and then he's back by 8:30.  He then spends the rest of the day in bed or running to the bathroom.  I have never seen him so wiped out.  He can literally sleep for hours and has no energy to do anything other than watch multiple seasons of 24 or play RISK on his iPhone.  I know, I know.  We missed that series when it was on in real time but thanks to cancer we are filling in our pop culture knowledge gap on all things related to Jack Bauer.  

While I am discussing his chemo/radiation regimen, I just want to thank the many volunteers who are waking up with roosters to chauffer Nathan to and fro.  We know it's not the easiest way to start your day so thank you again.

I'd like to send a belated thank you to Nadia Ackerman and all the musicians who I heard put on an amazing concert.  I have to say I was truly bummed to have missed it.  I mean a concert with all our favorite songs.  Who wouldn't want to go to that? Stupid seizure.  The only good part about being in the hospital was that I got two full nights of uninterrupted sleep.  That hasn't happened in the last two years.  I might as well have been at Canyon Ranch. 

A big thanks to Todd Lambrix and the many artists who donated their work to the art benefit last week.  It was such a brilliant idea and friends were texting us all evening about what piece they were hoping to snag.

LIVESTRONG also donated the proceeds from their booth at the NYC 5 Boro Bike Tour to us.  In fact, there are many events being held in our honor and for our benefit.  We can't thank you all enough not only for your generosity but also for your good wishes, time, effort and prayers. 

I'm going to sign off now because if I write anymore I am going to over think it, delete it or keep it as a draft and it will be another week before I write again.

xoxo, Gossip Girl...oh no...did I just admit to that?!